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Think.
Act.Speak.
(dis)Agree.Realize.
Change."
If this is a reflection
of my brain
it is [scattered]
but it's
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My rendition on the people you fall in love with in your twenties.
An almost love letter
I would say I have done a considerable amount of reading. Not enough considering, but just enough to know some of the dire straights of those who have past the threshold. There are a few things that have seemed to remained consistent in my observations of those stories; the people you will fall in love with in your twenties. As a 22 year old on the cusp of 23, some may argue as “just another year older” I must politely disagree. I am 22 about to turn 23 and this is the age of fucking oblivion. In all transparency, I have been a lot of different things to a lot of different people. I have fallen in love twice. I have broken and been broken seemingly to a point where my own cells reproduced but could not bear the thought of pairing up again because he left little bits of himself in every atom of my body. However, the sheer determination of my 20’s resurrected each wondering cell straight back to meiosis and painstakingly started the process of being whole again 10 million times over and I, I felt the displacement each time. That my friends, was the direct result of just one of the kinds of people you will fall in love with in your twenties. The one that got away; The Great White Buffalo. They say you will take a lover for granted, maybe a couple. Those ones do not always hurt right away, I am guessing when I am near mid life crisis sometime in my mid 30’s I recollect those, but I am sincerely apologetic in advance. You will also have some almost lovers in there. In fact, most of them will be. Those ones tend to feel like .5 point differential between second and first place in a race where you trained vigorously your entire life as if your final mission was to come in first, but you came in second at your own game and there is only one winner. And I guess, according to the non 20 year olds, that is supposed to be the time you learn about letting go. Right, I have always been a procrastinator so ill eventually get back to that. You work hard for what you have suffered for, and you will suffer. But that kind of love does not ever seem to work out for its own reasons, which leads me to my next point (according to the “others” of course). That is, it takes more than that 20 year old love, to be with that person. That hand in hand no matter how many callous you have from beating yourself up love. That side by side regardless of how cold it is in their shadow or how hot it is because you are always swaying the suns rays for them kind of love. Through hell and back and when I say hell I really mean the outer most so called “uncharted territories” of the universe which I do not believe are so uncharted because parts of me went that far to try and rid myself of those kind of love. Hell would have been a delectable stopping point for the suffering we have gone through sort of thing. The point is, to you, that I have loved, unconditionally and with limits, with earth shattering fear, and with euphoric tendencies, the truth…is that I love you. I just do. That is the thing about your twenties. You know just enough to know better, but not enough to care. My Great White Buffalo also identified as my superman though he may never see this, my cells are still re-spawning themselves. Resurrecting one by one and making sure my heart feels every last stitch. But you and I have some unfinished business, we are still in our twenties after all.
Water does not resist. Water flows. When you plunge your hand into it, all you feel is a caress. Water is not a solid wall, it will not stop you. But water always goes where it wants to go, and nothing in the end can stand against it. Water is patient. Dripping water wears away a stone. Remember that, my child. Remember you are half water. If you can’t go through an obstacle, go around it. Water does.
(Source: the-blu-lagooon)
Leaving is not enough. You must stay gone. Train your heart like a dog. Change the locks even on the house he’s never visited. You lucky, lucky girl. You have an apartment just your size. A bathtub full of tea. A heart the size of Arizona, but not nearly so arid. Don’t wish away your cracked past, your crooked toes, your problems are papier mache puppets you made or bought because the vendor at the market was so compelling you just had to have them. You had to have him. And you did. And now you pull down the bridge between your houses, you make him call before he visits, you take a lover for granted, you take a lover who looks at you like maybe you are magic. Make the first bottle you consume in this place a relic. Place it on whatever altar you fashion with a knife and five cranberries. Don’t lose too much weight. Stupid girls are always trying to disappear as revenge. And you are not stupid. You loved a man with more hands than a parade of beggars, and here you stand. Heart like a four-poster bed. Heart like a canvas. Heart leaking something so strong they can smell it in the street.
Do you understand how scary this picture is
god forbid a real person do real person things he wasnt just a robot who killed people jesus fucking christ
uh yeah its not like he killed and tortured six million jews or anything
Hold on just a tick. Listen, I’m Jewish, so I’m perfectly capable of understanding that what he did was just…..well, there are no words for it. There is nothing in this world that can truly and fully express that what he did was wrong. But let’s not round it up to simply Jews that got killed. It was six million people that died in those camps, not just Jews. Did you know that homosexuals were sent there, too? Yeah, I’m sure you did. They had to wear special little symbols on their clothes. Do you know what it was? It was a pink triangle.
It was six million PEOPLE.
But you let that roll over in your mind for a while and you are going to forever see this man as a monster, but that’s not what he was. He was someone who thought he was truly doing something right for his nation, no matter how shitty he was doing it. Believe me when I say that I don’t like him. I really don’t. My grandfather’s brothers died in those camps, and my grandfather escaped to Spain, then to Mexico. He was lucky.
This is not a monster holding hands with a little girl.
This is Adolf Hitler, a man, holding hands with a little girl.
Yeah. It’s fucking scary. It really is. Do you know why?
It’s because you’re seeing that he wasn’t, in fact, a monster. You’re seeing in this picture that he was a man. He was a man, and that’s really the saddest part of it all.
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I don’t believe people are looking for the meaning of life as much as they are looking for the experience of being alive.” ~Joseph Campbell
wow this just accurately described my past year and my upcoming year
25 Things To Do Before You Turn 25
1. Make peace with your parents. Whether you finally recognize that they actually have your best interests in mind or you forgive them for being flawed human beings, you can’t happily enter adulthood with that familial brand of resentment.
2. Kiss someone you think is out of your league; kiss models and med students and entrepreneurs with part-time lives in Dubai and don’t worry about if they’re going to call you afterward.
3. Minimize your passivity.
4. Work a service job to gain some understanding of how tipping works, how to keep your cool around assholes, how a few kind words can change someone’s day.
5. Recognize freedom as a 5:30 a.m. trip to the diner with a bunch of strangers you’ve just met.
6. Try not to beat yourself up over having obtained a ‘useless’ Bachelor’s Degree. Debt is hell, and things didn’t pan out quite like you expected, but you did get to go to college, and having a degree isn’t the worst thing in the world to have. We will figure this mess out, I think, probably; the point is you’re not worth less just because there hasn’t been an immediate pay off for going to school. Be patient, work with what you have, and remember that a lot of us are in this together.
7. If you’re employed in any capacity, open a savings account. You never know when you might be unemployed or in desperate need of getting away for a few days. Even $10 a week is $520 more a year than you would’ve had otherwise.
8. Make a habit of going outside, enjoying the light, relearning your friends, forgetting the internet.
9. Go on a 4-day, brunch-fueled bender.
10. Start a relationship with your crush by telling them that you want them. Directly. Like, look them in the face and say it to them. Say, I want you. I want to be with you.
11. Learn to say ‘no’ — to yourself. Don’t keep wearing high heels if you hate them; don’t keep smoking if you’re disgusted by the way you smell the morning after; stop wasting entire days on your couch if you’re going to complain about missing the sun.
12. Take time to revisit the places that made you who you are: the apartment you grew up in, your middle school, your hometown. These places may or may not be here forever; you definitely won’t be.
13. Find a hobby that makes being alone feel lovely and empowering and like something to look forward to.
14. Think you know yourself until you meet someone better than you.
15. Forget who you are, what your priorities are, and how a person should be.
16. Identify your fears and instead of letting them dictate your every move, find and talk to people who have overcome them. Don’t settle for experiencing .000002% of what the world has to offer because you’re afraid of getting on a plane.
17. Make a habit of cleaning up and letting go. Just because it fit at one point doesn’t mean you need to keep it forever — whether ‘it’ is your favorite pair of pants or your ex.
18. Stop hating yourself.
19. Go out and watch that movie, read that book, listen to that band you already lied about watching, reading, listening to.
20. Take advantage of health insurance while you have it.
21. Make a habit of telling people how you feel, whether it means writing a gushing fan-girl email to someone whose work you love or telling your boss why you deserve a raise.
22. Date someone who says, “I love you” first.
23. Leave the country under the premise of “finding yourself.” This will be unsuccessful. Places do not change people. Instead, do a lot of solo drinking, read a lot of books, have sex in dirty hostels, and come home when you start to miss it.
24. Suck it up and buy a Macbook Pro.
25. Quit that job that’s making you miserable, end the relationship that makes you act like a lunatic, lose the friend whose sole purpose in life is making you feel like you’re perpetually on the verge of vomiting. You’re young, you’re resilient, there are other jobs and relationships and friends if you’re patient and open.
one of the best things i’ve seen all night.
- If a guy treats you like he doesn’t give a shit, it’s because he doesn’t give a shit.
- If you can find him, then he can find you. If he wants to find you, he will.
- Men don’t forget how much they like you, so put down the phone.
- If a guy doesn’t call you, he doesn’t want to call you.
- Calling when you say you’re going to call is the very first brick in the house you are building of love and trust. If he can’t lay this one stupid brick down, you ain’t never gonna have a house, baby. And it’s cold outside.
- Don’t let the “honeys” and the “babys” fool you. His sweet nothings are exactly that. They are much easier to say than “I’m just not that into you.” Remember, actions speak louder than, “There’s no cell reception where I am right now.”
- A man who wants to make a relationship work will move mountains to keep the woman he loves. If he’s not calling you to tell you he loves you and wants you back, it should only be because he’s showing up at your new residence to do it in person… if he’s not doing any of that, he may love you, he may miss you, but ultimately he’s just not that into you. Stop taking his calls and let him know what it’s like to live without you.
- Don’t be flattered that he misses you. He should miss you. You’re deeply missable.
- Breakup sex still means you’re broken up.
- Cut him off. Let him miss you.
- The reason it’s so painful when someone disappears is you have to face the fact that the person you loved had probably left you a long time before he grabbed his coat and scrammed. The part is realizing that he was lying to you, in some way, before the moment of vanishing.
- Deciding to get back together with someone is a complicated and difficult decision. Just remember that the person you are getting back together with is the same person who, not long before, looked you in your beautiful face, took full stock of you and all your qualities, and told you that he was no longer in need of your company.
- He doesn’t need to be reminded that you’re great.
- There’s a guy out there who’s going to be really happy that you didn’t get back together with your crappy ex-boyfriend.
- Don’t give him the chance to reject you again.
- No matter how powerful and real your feelings may be for someone, if that person cannot fully and honestly return them and therefore actively love you back, these feelings mean nothing.
- “But sometimes we’re so focused on finding our happy ending we don’t learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don’t, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a guy, maybe… it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is… just… moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope.”
(Source: lisles)
did you know that there are over 7,300 islands in oceania area alone. just saying.
check yo facts.
(Source: lovequotesrus)
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